Today was more challenging than yesterday, though I still managed a few small wins. I got out of bed several times, worked briefly on my blog, and walked to the kitchen where I sat for a while watching the birds outside. The movement was refreshing, but I had to take frequent breaks due to dizziness. Quick movements continue to trigger imbalance and lightheadedness.
A highlight was being able to make my own coffee this morning. My husband had prepared breakfast before work, and all I needed to do was heat it up. Having the house to myself still feels unsettling, especially since my seizures remain unpredictable. Sometimes I can sense them—usually starting with a throbbing headache, heaviness in my body, slowed speech, and delayed movement—but other times they come without warning. When I feel dizzy, I either return to bed, sit in a chair, or lie down on the floor to prevent injury.
Symptom-wise, today was marked by persistent headache and intense nausea, which left me fatigued and unable to accomplish much else. These symptoms have been ongoing for about a month now, and the lack of a clear cause adds to the difficulty of managing daily life.
Emotionally, I find myself longing for independence again—being able to cook, clean, tend to my animals, and run my farmstand. At the same time, I am adjusting to having a supportive partner. My husband’s care feels new and almost surreal compared to my past relationships, where I managed illness entirely on my own. This support brings comfort, even on difficult days.
While today was far from easy, I recognize that trying, resting, and acknowledging my limits are forms of progress. Each small step forward is still movement toward recovery.
✨ Affirmation: I am learning patience with my body, trusting that rest and small efforts will lead me back to strength.
Author: Nemesis N. Escobar
